Good morning lovlies, I’m not doing a live weigh in anymore because people have been complaining that i yawn in my video’s so i don’t want to have negativity thrown back at me. Recently i haven’t got the time or energy to be dealing with negativity so for now I’ll stop doing them.
So… this week’s weigh in isn’t good. In fact its terrible! +3lb! It just feels like I’m on a downward spiral recentley and the relationship between myself and food has turned negative. Which in turn puts you in a bad mood then makes you want to eat rubbish then you end up putting weight on. So it’s just a vicious circle.
I don’t know if my brain is already trying to get into holiday mode aswell but whatever is going on really needs to stop right now.
Everything just seems to have changed for me recentley. I no longer want to cook or vlog and that’s because the more i fall off track the further withdrawn i get.
So today the line is being drawn. I’m now 11st 8 and I’m starting to feel really uncomfortable looking in the mirror as i can see the extra weight in my body.
Today i really am going to change my relationship with food back into a postive one by doing lots of batch cooking (which I’ll vlog) and removing all the bad chocolate and crisps until I’m back in a better mind frame.
I don’t want sympathy, this is just my way of getting what’s going on for me out. It’s like a dairy for me to reflect on.
So to make sure this week is going to be good, I’m going to:-
❤ plan all my meals.
❤ stock up on free foods for snacking on, cooked meats, boiled eggs, carrot and cucumber sticks, yoghurts ect.
❤ vlog all my week to keep me on track.
❤ batch cook a few meals.
❤ write everything down and keep a track of all my syns.
❤ aim for 3 jogs this week ????
❤ most importantly I’m not going to beat myself up. Life has ups and downs but it’s how you feal with them what’s the main thing.
Keep smiling lovlies. We all fall off plan every now and again but we can do it.
Hope you hace a great week too.
Lots of love Tanya xxx